to the one who’s never coming back

Bebsism’s current emo mode: That I Would Be Good – Alanis Morrisette

Those hands I didn’t get the chance to hold.  Do they sweat when you’re nervous?  Lucky for your sharp knife to be wrapped around your fingers when they make love before lunchtime.  And the garlic stains that tried to get in the way to your trimmed nails.  Those hands that held the spoon that carried the food to your ex’s mouth every breakfast in bed.

Those hands.  That I didn’t get the chance to feel.  When I desperately long for a massage when days were heavy.  That could have held the soap I wished ran through my back when I was too lame to call it a day.  The softness of those hands remained a wonder.

How do you sound when you’re angry? Does your voice tremble like a child stripped of his innocence? You must sound so sweet when you’re happy.  Each time you say you were, I knew I could defy gravity just to hear that whisper, gently laid upon my empty ears.

Your voice. I never got to hear them. Such pity.

What could be the sound of shower on your fair skin?  Are they like the rustles of dead leaves that I playfully love to step on during a quiet walk along that deserted street? Your skin, I never got to feel. 

And those eyes.  That I saw from somewhere the sad longing to stay away from my gaze.  The useless chants of arrows that struck them, bleeding until they see no more.  Wishing they wouldn’t see me anymore.

Your anatomy. Your whole.  I never had them.  Like the songs I never wrote but wished I had.  Or captured beauty of something that was never blinding. 

There you were.  On your back, inertia of my soul.  I never had you. Like mystery.

2 thoughts on “to the one who’s never coming back

  1. “Far Away”

    This time, This place
    Misused, Mistakes
    Too long, Too late
    Who was I to make you wait
    Just one chance
    Just one breath
    Just in case there’s just one left
    ‘Cause you know,
    you know, you know

    [CHORUS]
    That I love you
    I have loved you all along
    And I miss you
    Been far away for far too long
    I keep dreaming you’ll be with me
    and you’ll never go
    Stop breathing if
    I don’t see you anymore

    On my knees, I’ll ask
    Last chance for one last dance
    ‘Cause with you, I’d withstand
    All of hell to hold your hand
    I’d give it all
    I’d give for us
    Give anything but I won’t give up
    ‘Cause you know,
    you know, you know

    [CHORUS]

    So far away
    Been far away for far too long
    So far away
    Been far away for far too long
    But you know, you know, you know

    I wanted
    I wanted you to stay
    ‘Cause I needed
    I need to hear you say
    That I love you
    I have loved you all along
    And I forgive you
    For being away for far too long
    So keep breathing
    ‘Cause I’m not leaving you anymore
    Believe it
    Hold on to me and, never let me go
    Keep breathing
    ‘Cause I’m not leaving you anymore
    Believe it
    Hold on to me and, never let me go
    Keep breathing
    Hold on to me and, never let me go
    Keep breathing
    Hold on to me and, never let me go

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